After all the moments I cried, why am I still here ?

Yesterday I went to church with my mom and brother. I do not normally write or reflect upon the daily gospels because for some reason, they do not speak to me at all. But this particular one hit me. It hit me to the gut. I wanted to tear because those were the sentiments I had been having lately.

The priest explained that we suffer not because we deserve it, we suffer for we need to open our eyes we need to cling on to Jesus more. We cannot demand certain wishes to be acted upon right away. Along the lines of the priest, he had also mentioned how we must go back to being "pure". It strike me because he said "pure" in tagalog which was dalisay and dalisay is the name of my exhibit.

Not sure if it is a comforting sign to hear or a reminder I need to remember but I think Jesus is telling me that He is with me. Just that I need hold on more a little longer. Hay, I got this I guess ? haha