It's the new year, despite all the breakdowns I've had for this month and how the sadness will never end, i am still positive about this year. I am thankful. I've made it, January.

Still in a hangover from Japan.

Happy November, folks.

One day, I woke up from a nightmare. It was not about monsters or anything physically scary. It started when me and my friends attended this outdoor concert in the middle of the woods late at night. There was music, lights and people. It also gave that 'Wanderland' concert vibe. You could really hear the joy from them as well. Later on, I bumped into another circle of friends and I hung out with them for a bit. When I decided to return to my original friends, they were gone.

That was when the nightmare begun. I called them and they told me that they left because I did not value them and how I selfishly brought them to the concert so that I would not be alone. Of course, I did not mean such thing so I went into the woods to look for them. I even called one of them to explain everything. Upon explaining, the dream started to fade. This frustrated me as I was not able to give justice to my friends.

Thus I woke up from a dream that left some discomfort in me. This has also made me ponder on my various group of friends. Although I was not sure why my subconscious would be so cooped up by this. In fact, I feel blessed with the friends I have. It is even to a point where it feels undeserving to have a couple of close friends. But I guess I do deserve a bit of good. The dream I had awhile ago was something I fear. I do not want to lose my friends ever.